Another Week, A Close Call...

Howdy y'all,
Lou was discharged last Friday and I got a call in the middle of the night from Terri that Lou was completely out of it and didn't respond to her. So, I went over there and Lou had taken apart the rail of her hospital bed and crawled to the recliner in the living room without her prosthetic legs on. Ended up in the recliner, breaking the recliner and didn't know why she did it or where she was. So after convincing Terri, I called 911 and she ended up back in the ICU where her levels were way off. She is physically doing better, but her mental status is still a concern. So please say a few prayers for her as she has a long road ahead of her. At least she's still recognizing everyone but she gets very scared and wants to go home. I don't blame her. I wish, I wish, I wish...
Haven't gotten to spend as much time as I'd like with the gal pal. She has been a solid rock for me in that she has been so incredibly patient with me and everything that is going on with my family. She has been so understanding and encouraging... I really don't know where I'd be without that woman... She has been such a blessing to me. She has absolutely no idea just how amazing and beautiful she truly is... People ask me sometimes how I deal with all of the stress in my life. That's easy. I lean on God, and I depend on my honey... and somehow, someway, I manage to put one foot in front of the other and even smile while I do it...

Hanging On Like Always

Hi folks,
I appreciate the thoughts and prayers. Things are still crazy around here. Lou is in the hospital but hopefully we'll find out what's going on as she still is confused and at times disoriented. Terri is worried but is hopeful for our sister. I was really worried as when I walked into the ER to see Lou, she didn't know who I was. But once she knew who I was, she remembered my gal pal who I didn't bring up so that made me feel a little better. In subsequent visits, I never asked if she knew who I was and she called me by my name. I feel better that she knows who I am again. But the big question is why she's going through this? We don't know why but they're running tests so hopefully we'll get some answers. Spending time with Lou is always an adventure. While she was in the ER, it was me, Terri, Ang, and Nancy... all people that Lou knows and loves. And in true family tradition, we were all cutting up and making morbid jokes in the face of fear. That is always a sign that somehow, someway, we're going to make it... My faith is getting stronger!

Rebooting...

Just looking at the list as I struggle and keep working at my faith... and try to hold on...

First... the one thing that I remind myself is that just because I'm a believer, nowhere... absolutely nowhere does it say that a Christian's life is going to be sunshine and bunny rabbits. We don't have all the answers. I don't know where people get that idea. I and we all that have faith, still struggle, have to go through the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. No one ever said that we are better than anyone else or more importantly, that somehow we're better than those who do not share our faith. Believe me, one look at my life should serve as a perfect example. I'm a big time screw up who has a lot on his plate and still struggles on a daily basis trying to make sense of what is going on not only with my family, but with the crazy things that go on in the world around me. As a Christian, some have thought that I somehow have it all together or have all the answers, especially amongst non-believers. They're surprised to learn that we don't have it all together. That we screw up and make mistakes and blow it. I guess that's what gives me reassurance sometimes. The fact that I am no better than anyone else and struggle and try to fight the good fight like everyone else... the hope that I have in Him is what keeps me holding on and continue to put one foot in front of the other. Even in the face of adversity.

"Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivereth him out of them all" Psalm 34:19

"Remember, it's the Creator who gives purpose to the created"... Will Graham (grandson of Billy Graham)

I guess what I'm trying to say in all of this rambling is that when you don't know what, where, when, who, or the big one... WHY... just hold on. It's not about seeing through each other... it's about seeing each other through...