Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Time... It does go by...


Hmm… what a difference three months can make…

It seems like only yesterday, we bid our sister adieu’ at seven in the morning. At the time it seemed like an eternity from the time she went to Heaven, to the time services were held. And that was only a week. It’s been three months today and so much has happened to the family. Obviously the biggest changes have been with Terri. She sent me a text today that simply said “Three months today, and I still miss her”. The difference though with Terri now versus 3 months ago, is that she would mope and grieve three months ago. Now, she’ll miss Lou, feel sad, but she is moving on with life because she asked me how to fix her computer…lol… And she was teasing me about a variety of things so her sense of humor is back and was sorely missed by the rest of us. I think about Lou everyday. I think about her when I see magazines in the gift shop at work… When I’m at the grocery store and I see the grape flavored Propel water. Little things like that. But I remember how full of life Lou was… I don’t wish her back here. She’s in paradise. Why would I take that from her? Three months ago today… seems longer than that but I know Lou would want us to keep going and stop moping. So we’re not moping… just taking time to remember… our precious bull in a china shop… our Lou…

Saturday, May 05, 2012

And Before Ya Know It....

So... some good news for Terri... 
She has moved and is now in a much safer neighborhood and away from her crack dealing, former next door neighbor. She is now sleeping through the night and without the light on. She is getting better sleep and looks a lot healthier than when she was going through the time of taking care of Lou. She now is cooking again and the entire family is happy about that!! Our waistlines will once again expand because of her cooking. I couldn't be happier. I talked with her this week and she told me that for the first time in a very long time, she doesn't feel overwhelming pressure trying to drown her. I was joking around with her and in the past it was always me trying to make her laugh. This time it was her showing her sense of humor and looking like she finally, yes finally, was going to find a way to enjoy life. She still misses Lou tremendously... heck, we all do... But now that Lou is no longer suffering and is in Heaven enjoying paradise, Terri is now starting to spread her wings and is now starting to grow... to reach out of her comfort zone and do things she hasn't done before. I love hearing the joy in her voice again. God is good....